afiq iskandar diary

PLEASE!

2010-10-15T23:06:00.000-07:00

PLEASEE!

LOYAL to Me! im freaking tired of all this thing. one more time and you just lost me forever!

afiq

Sigh*

2010-10-14T10:24:00.000-07:00

i know anything wont last long right. happy for 3 days, broken for 4 days. but this time she just went overlimit! well then, i just focus on my work! work work work. earn some money afiq! lets do it. u dont need anything else. if she left you, then its her lost. u just have to keep moving on. she said the same thing to him just like she told you. its hurt but yet, blur comes clearer now.can see who she want right now. very clear.

afiq

12th October 2010

2010-10-12T09:23:00.000-07:00

we are like chatting all night long. -__-'

but its sweet, i remember doing this back 2 years ago. hee. ohhh. 12th October 2010. its our 2nd years together. wiwiiiit! tak sangkaaa. dah 2 tahun!

many things happened lately, but it still didnt break us apart. it still keep us together. wee.

there was a time where i didnt believe in love, i really thought it never existed. but this is the time that makes me wan to thank you. thank you for everything because it is you who taught me love, and how to love. before, i feared love. but now, i know i cannot go on without you.!

forget the past, and lets just look forward will ya. come on! we've been this far!

regards,

Afiq

2010-10-05T01:03:00.000-07:00

OHOOOIIIII!!

ahaha, its been 1 year since i update my last post. woaaww

long timeee ehhh! phew! ok this one year have a lot of memory in it.

dont care if its good or bad. what i know, i have to live my life. well lately i have many stories to tell.

but i have only few times here! so will update again, dont know when, maybeee. in 2 3 months later?

hehe, gile lame tulis blog, lame dah org tak buat. skang orang pakai FACEBOOK which i already deactivated

5 min ago. boring and buat sakit hati je kan. ok here;s my story

Remember when i first blogging i tell you guys about this 1 girl. well, we still together, but not as when we first start.

all of us have different ways now. have more commitment. on work, on other person. sometimes, i feel like i was left alone. she didnt understand that. it hard for me. but what else can i do. i wanted to tell everything here, but i love to keep it SECRET and keep it by my self. even she didnt understand what it feels to sacrifice for her. what i've given. its not that i BERKIRA ke ape la kan. but i just need ur attention and the most important is LOYALTY. ouch. sgt susah nak loyal skarang ni. tak kire la sape pun. even me nor her. we both are the same. maybe im a lil bit flirty now, but whyy?? because she did the samee! im sick of waiting. im sick and hurt seeing her with him. OMG. that guy kan, memang tak reti bahasa kottt. gile desperate gila. well maybe im not good enough for her. but comee oonnn. not him laa. EWW. sakit hati gila. what she never did to me she did it to him. loser gile la aku ni kan.

Mane roti telur aku ni (actually kat khulafa ni)

arrrgghhh. tension la fikir. kadang2 rasa macam tak nak amek port dah laa. biar nak cari orang lain. tapi masalahnye takboleh kott. tak taw macam mana die bole buat. aku sendiri susah kot nak buat. dah laa. actually nak cerita habis kat sini, tapi tak taw mane nak start, so bace je la everything that i feel now.

Regards,

Afiq Iskandar

BTW, i fee like i single ( BOLEH?)

i will not ever, control your life

2009-07-17T09:51:00.000-07:00

its been a while since i wrote in this blog. hee. well, surprisingly, i miss to write in here. haha! i never did before oh. lol.

well, u did sent me the message syg.
so, after this. i tak dah nak kacau2 idup u. all u need to do is. bgtau i
i takkan halang u nak watpe lagi
u yang ckp jgn masuk campur dalam idup you kan
m.. nvm me.
bye.

Finally

2009-05-19T10:11:00.000-07:00

Finally.. I've found someone that I could really love. Someone I could rely on. Someone I could trust. Someone who is as passionate as I am. Someone almost perfect to me. Someone who accepts me as I am. Someone who really cares about me. Someone who is really sweet. Someone that really pays attention towards me. Someone that I could share everything with. Someone that motivates me. Someone who really understands me. Someone that appreciates. Someone that I could settle my heart with. sigh.. That someone is Nur Syafiqah Binti Kamarudin a.k.a my love. I've been quite an ignorant because I didn't want to fall too deep but without realising it.. I've actually have. Early of the relationship, I told her that i dont want she or me break up no matter what.

i will be a guy:
1)A guy that you are able to drag anywhere for shopping and he wouldn't complain but he'll help you to decide what to buy.
2)A guy who you can talk about anything to at anytime and cry on his shoulder as much as you want.
3)A guy who would help you to cook in the kitchen or rearrange your room
4)A guy who would ensure you that he'll be there to always support you, care for you and love you.
5)A guy who says the right words at the right time when you want to hear it.
6)A guy who knows how to take good care of you
7)A guy who will loves you no matter what happened
8)A guy who always want you, and no other woman can take your place
9)A guy who is willing to do anything just for you without complaining

the one and only i will love forever is you eyka, please dont doubt me. because i truly into you.

I love the fact the I can talk to you for hours and never be bored. I even love the fact that I can see you all the time and always have fun. You're so adorable when you're being all cheeky and it never fails to make me smile. I feel so happy and I love being with you. You make me feel like a puppy in love. I love watching the way your body moves especially when it dances with mine. The way that you touch and tease me, makes me feel so alive. When you hug me, I wish you would never let me go and when you kiss me, I wish it would never end. I Love You. I would have never told you this but you read my heart. =)

well, thats it for today bla bla bla
;p i'll write again later.

I got HOPE.

2009-05-19T02:12:00.000-07:00

well, this is what i get today fellas. hope. but when i got hope, it started to be fade again. i just dont understand with all this thing. well, maybe its true that Hope is the worst of evils, for it prolongs the torments of man. i dont know? maybe?
maybe i dont really understand what her needs. well, eventually, i am a losers. eventhough i did not look like one, but i still a loser. well u get me right. i always lose everything that i love. once before. FRIENDS than HER. what can i say. everybody is leaving me as i am one of the biggest loser alive. but, i try to keep on going. No matter how bad my heart is broken, the world does not stop for my grief. ayte.
but when time passes by, i'm starting to realise that i'm losing something that is very important for me. which is the most precious and my point of life. i just cant see where should i go, what should i say, what should i do. well man, this hurt a lot! making me confuse each time we talk.
at first, i started to beg her, beg for her love for me. then, i starting to realise. its her who made the decision. it is her who suppose to make the decision again this time. cause i know i always open for her. i just have to lead her. show her how much i love her. i cannot just begging at all time. what ever it is, i do love you eyka. forever will.

heart broken

2009-05-18T10:04:00.000-07:00

You did it again. You broke my heart again. You promised you wouldn't do that.Promised you'd always be here for me. Promised you'd never hurt me. And I trusted you. Again. its been a few time she did this to me.. YES! i love her! but what should i do?? i know i cant be mr.perfect everyday. i am just an ordinary teenagers loving you syg. please dont do this to me.. i really2 loves you nomatter what happened
mm.. :(

what do i feel now?
she means so much to me. I just wish she
knew because when I’m around hers
the say is a different blue and when she talks to me
my knees begin to shake.
The last thing I want is another heartbreak.
If she would love me like I love her
I could tell her that I will always be true
but when I try to talk, I just don’t know
what to say because I know she doesn’t feel the same way.
i just dont know dear.

Without you I'm not okay.. without you I've lost my way...my hearts stuck in second place....god knows how much i loves you. please understand my situation, god, please show me what to do. darn! i'm to down and to weak for this! is it the right decision we're making, eventhough i know deep inside me, i dont want this, but what can i do? i cannot love you if you did not feel the same way. please, dont let me hang like this, stuck without answers i needed! You mean so much to me. I just wish I could tell you now but I would never be able to find the words without breaking down.